all the things that don't matter still matter

i thought they would forgive me but they couldn't. i didn't want to die but i'm making my mental health burn. if i die by myself, then i betray God. i prayed, nothing happened. but hopefully there will be light next time or tomorrow. i solely want to forget everything and hopefully i would live in peace. if it weren't for the stupid academic grades i need to improve. if i don't, then i'm not attending the graduation for i am ashamed. i can't believe i would grow up like this stupid human being who doesn't know anything but actually does, i just can't show it because of how fucking lazy i am. not even a single effort i could bring, nothing. i would rather take my form away as a fetus than to live eventually. i don't deserve it.

i thought they would forgive me but they couldn't. i didn't want to die but i'm making my mental health burn. if i die by myself, then i betray God. i prayed, nothing happened. but hopefully there will be light next time or tomorrow. i solely want to forget everything and hopefully i would live in peace. if it weren't for the stupid academic grades i need to improve. if i don't, then i'm not attending the graduation for i am ashamed. i can't believe i would grow up like this stupid human being who doesn't know anything but actually does, i just can't show it because of how fucking lazy i am. not even a single effort i could bring, nothing. i would rather take my form away as a fetus than to live eventually. i don't deserve it.

i thought they would forgive me but they couldn't. i didn't want to die but i'm making my mental health burn. if i die by myself, then i betray God. i prayed, nothing happened. but hopefully there will be light next time or tomorrow. i solely want to forget everything and hopefully i would live in peace. if it weren't for the stupid academic grades i need to improve. if i don't, then i'm not attending the graduation for i am ashamed. i can't believe i would grow up like this stupid human being who doesn't know anything but actually does, i just can't show it because of how fucking lazy i am. not even a single effort i could bring, nothing. i would rather take my form away as a fetus than to live eventually. i don't deserve it.

i thought they would forgive me but they couldn't. i didn't want to die but i'm making my mental health burn. if i die by myself, then i betray God. i prayed, nothing happened. but hopefully there will be light next time or tomorrow. i solely want to forget everything and hopefully i would live in peace. if it weren't for the stupid academic grades i need to improve. if i don't, then i'm not attending the graduation for i am ashamed. i can't believe i would grow up like this stupid human being who doesn't know anything but actually does, i just can't show it because of how fucking lazy i am. not even a single effort i could bring, nothing. i would rather take my form away as a fetus than to live eventually. i don't deserve it.

i thought they would forgive me but they couldn't. i didn't want to die but i'm making my mental health burn. if i die by myself, then i betray God. i prayed, nothing happened. but hopefully there will be light next time or tomorrow. i solely want to forget everything and hopefully i would live in peace. if it weren't for the stupid academic grades i need to improve. if i don't, then i'm not attending the graduation for i am ashamed. i can't believe i would grow up like this stupid human being who doesn't know anything but actually does, i just can't show it because of how fucking lazy i am. not even a single effort i could bring, nothing. i would rather take my form away as a fetus than to live eventually. i don't deserve it.

i thought they would forgive me but they couldn't. i didn't want to die but i'm making my mental health burn. if i die by myself, then i betray God. i prayed, nothing happened. but hopefully there will be light next time or tomorrow. i solely want to forget everything and hopefully i would live in peace. if it weren't for the stupid academic grades i need to improve. if i don't, then i'm not attending the graduation for i am ashamed. i can't believe i would grow up like this stupid human being who doesn't know anything but actually does, i just can't show it because of how fucking lazy i am. not even a single effort i could bring, nothing. i would rather take my form away as a fetus than to live eventually. i don't deserve it.